I can imagine how busy you all are, especially with everything that Japan is passing true, and with this new tour underway. Still I hope you have a few minutes to read this letter, since it means a lot to me.
For many this may seems silly, but for me it is something much more important, cause it would be one of the many dreams that I own in this life and for which I struggle to become reality.
Ohayo, watashi wa Luiza desu (ok, unfortunately I know only a little Japanese, but I would love to know more than the basics.) I'm 22, born in Brazil but with a Japanese soul.
I say this because of an incredible passion I possess for this country that you live, that for me there are no words to describe. I did not have the opportunity to visit Japan, but I know that one day (soon) will go there, and if possible to watch for another show of X.
And it was because of this passion for Japan, that in 1995, a friend of my brother came to me to introduce the band X Japan. I was still young to this kind of music, but I fell in love with the beautiful melodies, the Japanese language, that I've ever liked, by letters, by the accords.
I didn’t have the opportunity to accompany the band from the beginning but still, the passion that I have for the band grew and rise and continues until today.
When the band broke up in 1997 I cried, I never thought I'd see a show of you, especially with what happened the next year, when everyone said goodbye to our beloved Hide-sama.
It was really hard to follow the story of the band, at that time even more because it wasn’t a North American band, so it was really hard here in Brazil, yet I always gave my ways to be in touch and to know everything that each one of you wore doing.
In 2006 during my exchange in the USA, I came to lose my grandmother, and it was because of that, that the song Tears (my favorite) become so present in my life. The reason it is so simple, the lyrics was exactly what I was feeling about her departure. ("Memory, you never let me cry. And you, you never said goodbye ")
And just to don’t stop my passion for X, in 2007, the band returned to active and I met Love-desu, a good friend of mine, because we had something in common, our passion and admiration for X. He played the guitar when we were in the neighborhood of Liberdade (where the vast majority of Japanese descendants live) and I tried to sing, but I’m so shy, I don’t really think that I’m a good singer.
2008 I was in a very complicated moment of my life, for having gone to live in Lyon, to take a course of Culinary Arts, and I feel very lonely for not having any friends close by. For my surprise, Love-desu decided to write me a letter with two songs in the background. Tears and Forever Love. And just for remembering it I found myself without words to try to describe what I felt with the letter.
Two songs perfect for me. And every day I used to watch the videos from the concerts in Tokyo that he did send me the DVD, and guess what? I stay with an even greater desire to see X!
And as if this we’re not enough, I found out that you guys were going to do a concert in Paris! And I was able to go! That was going to be the show of my life, and just a few miles from me! It was like a being in a dream! I wanted to watch, but at the same time I thought it would not be the perfect show, because to be perfect my friends need to be with me.
So in the end I make a prayer that I was going to be able to see an amazing X Japan Show, but with my friends! To make the perfect deal, the perfect day, the perfect show, the perfect dream! When I will be able to be with everyone that are important for me at the show and more, able to see X!
Time pass fast, and fake news were going around the internet telling that you wore coming to Brazil, but it never happened, many gave up, they started saying that X will never do a Show in South America, but I was so confident, and I really didn’t care about waiting for a little longer. I was waiting since 95.
So First come Toshi, and it was just amazing being able to hear him with all the T-Earth Group! In the end, again I was dreaming, dreaming with the day that in that stage I was going to see X JAPAN!
But… In September 2010, my life had changed completely. I was diagnosed with a rare type of cancer, called Mesothelioma. I think I had never felt that I was walking in a street without an exit.
It was really hard on the beginning , but after a while I realize that I had to surpass this and fight for the things I thing are important for me. That is why I’m always with a smile in my face. I’ve changed my life, with hope, faith and determination.
Knowing that are steps for my cure, I started running for my dreams, and it starts to come true! But I had two in special, or to make it better, tree. One it was the show of the musician Yanni, the show was just a relief and a big step for me to be in peace and starts to realize about everything I need to change in my life.
The other two dreams are… Be in a X Japan’s Show, that I’m been waiting until 1995, and to be able to know each band member personally.
But… I like to believe in something I have learned with a person that says “If you can dream, you can do it”, I also know that we need the right amount of people and the right ones to make it true. Rigth?
And… why is this so important for me? Because in September it is my last quimiotherapy, at least that is what my doctor sass. And I hope that with that and the Show it will be my complete cure. And with this I will know that I will be ok.
It is weird to think, but for me, music can make miracles happen and I believe that some of X Japan music’s have this power. And that is why I never gave up my dream to go to a show and to meet each one of you!
I love every piece of this band, each member of it and all who fought to transform it into what it is today and always. An amazing band that is part of my days, my history, my life,my dreams, my cure!!!
Thank you for the existence of X Japan and for offer so many beautiful songs. Music that marked our lives in so many ways!
Thanks for your precious time reading my letter.
Hontoni Arigatou!
Kisu,
Luiza Boragina
We are X! For ever!!!
We are X! For ever!!!
e-mail: luliboragina@gmail.com
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