SOOOOO NERVOUS!

Hum...... well...
I'm so nervous for tomorrow...
Tomorrow I will make another PET SCAN.... I'm so anxious about it!
The results come only on Tuesday.... and it is like a eternity of waiting time....

But I should be more calm... after my birthday (oct. 15th).. I received one of the most beautiful presents ever!  And I know it was to make me fell better.. but... Still...

Well... lets see tomorrow! And the day after!

Everything is going to be ok!  I know it will!

Dreams Come true! You just need to believe!

HI!!!!
It is been a long time since my last time here.
Well... I have a really good reason.
I just right wen I fell like. Or it is not going to work, cause I like to express my feelings on it.


So let start.


First I wanna say thanks for Maurício Varnum  that helps me make my dream come true!  
And the second is a thanks for all my friends and family!  And all the support that everyone gave me. 


The reason is because off all this and my on effort I found a way to get what I wish for. 


So once again, THANKS!

DREAMS

…And just like that, after a long wait, a day like any else,

I decide to triumph…I decided to look for the opportunities, not to wait.
I decided to see every problem as the opportunity to find a solution
I decided to see every desert as the opportunity to find an oasis
I decided to see every night as a mystery to solve
I decided to see every day as a new opportunity to be happy.
That day I found that my only rival was my own weaknesses,
And in them, is the only way and better way of surpassed us.
That day I lost the fear of loosing and I started to fear of no winning,
I discovered that I was not the best and maybe never was.
I stop caring about who was the winner or the looser.
Now I care just knowing more than yesterday.
I learned that the hard thing is never stop climbing to the top, not to reach it.
I learned that the better triumph that I can have, is to have the right of calling someone “my friend”
I discovered that the love is more than a feeling of being in love, “the love is a philosophy of life”
That day I stopped being a reflect of my few triumphs of the past and I started to be my own tenuous light of this present;
I learned that it do not matter if you are a being light if you are not going to illuminate the others road.
That day I decided to change so many things…
That day I learned that the dreams only are to make come true
Since that day I don’t sleep to rest
Now, I dream just for dreams.

Walter Elias Disney 




Cause they say, that this is just like who I really am.  

 

To my beloved band X JAPAN and ALL the members on it!

I can imagine how busy you all are, especially with everything  that Japan is passing true, and with this new tour underway. Still I hope you have a few minutes to read this letter, since it means a lot to me.

For many this may seems silly, but for me it is something much more important, cause it would be one of the many dreams that I own in this life and for which I struggle to become reality.

Ohayo, watashi wa Luiza desu  (ok, unfortunately I know only a little Japanese, but I would love to know more than the basics.) I'm 22, born in Brazil but with a Japanese soul.

I say this because of an incredible passion I possess for this country that you live, that for me there are no words to describe. I did not have the opportunity to visit Japan, but I know  that one day (soon) will go there, and if possible to watch for another show of  X.

And it was because of this passion for Japan, that in 1995,  a friend of my brother came to me to introduce the band X Japan. I was still young to this kind of music, but I fell in love with the beautiful melodies, the Japanese language, that I've ever liked, by letters, by the accords.
I didn’t have the opportunity to accompany the band from the beginning but still, the passion that I have for the band grew and rise and continues until today. 

When the band broke up in 1997 I cried, I never thought I'd see a show of you, especially with what happened the next year, when everyone said goodbye to our beloved Hide-sama.­

It was really hard to follow the story of the band, at that time even more  because it wasn’t a North American band, so it was really hard here in Brazil, yet I always gave my ways to be in touch and to know everything that each one of you wore doing.

In 2006 during my exchange in the USA, I came to lose my grandmother, and it was because of that, that the song Tears (my favorite) become so present in my life.  The reason it is so simple, the lyrics was exactly what I was feeling about her departure. ("Memory, you never let me cry. And you, you never said goodbye ")

And just to don’t stop my passion for X, in 2007, the band returned to active and I met Love-desu, a good friend of mine, because we had something in common, our passion and admiration for X. He played the guitar when we were in the neighborhood of Liberdade (where the vast majority of Japanese descendants live) and I tried to sing, but I’m so shy, I don’t really think that I’m a good singer.

2008 I was in a very complicated moment of my life, for having gone to live in Lyon, to take a course of Culinary Arts, and I feel very lonely for not having any friends close by. For my surprise,  Love-desu decided to write me a letter with two songs in the background. Tears and Forever Love.  And just for remembering it I found myself without words to try to describe what I felt with the letter.

Two songs perfect for me. And every day I used to watch the videos from the concerts in Tokyo that he did send me the DVD, and guess what? I stay with an even greater desire to see X!

And as if this we’re not enough, I found out that you guys were going to do a concert in Paris! And I was able to go! That was going to be the show of my life, and just a few miles from me! It was like a being in a dream! I wanted to watch, but at the same time I thought it would not be the perfect show, because to be perfect my friends need to be with me. 

So in the end I make a prayer that I was going to be able to see an amazing X Japan Show, but with my friends!  To make the perfect deal, the perfect day, the perfect show, the perfect dream! When I will be able to be with everyone that are important for me at the show and more, able to see X!

Time pass fast, and fake news were going around the internet telling that you wore coming to Brazil, but it never happened, many gave up, they started saying that X will never do a Show in South America, but I was so confident, and I really didn’t care about waiting for a little longer. I was waiting since 95.

So First come Toshi, and it was just amazing being able to hear him with all the T-Earth Group! In the end, again I was dreaming, dreaming with the day that in that stage I was going to see X JAPAN!

But… In September 2010, my life had changed completely.  I was diagnosed with a rare type of cancer, called Mesothelioma. I think I had never felt that I was walking in a street without an exit.

It was really hard on the beginning , but after  a while I realize that I had to surpass this and fight for the things I thing are important for me. That is why I’m always with a smile in my face. I’ve changed my life, with hope, faith and determination.

Knowing that are steps for my cure, I started running for my dreams, and it starts to come true! But I had two in special, or to make it better, tree. One it was the show of the musician Yanni, the show was just a relief and a big step for me to be in peace and starts to realize about everything I need to change in my life.   

The other two dreams  are… Be in a X Japan’s Show, that I’m been waiting until 1995, and to be able to know each band member personally.

But…  I like to believe  in something I have learned with a person that says “If you can dream, you can do it”, I also know that we need the right amount of people and the right ones to make it true. Rigth?

And… why is this so important for me?  Because in September it is my last quimiotherapy, at least that is what my doctor sass.  And I hope that with that and the Show it will be my complete cure. And with this I will know that I will be ok.

It is weird to think, but for me, music can make miracles happen and I believe that some of X Japan music’s have this power. And that is why I never gave up my dream to go to a show and to meet each one of you!

I love every piece of this band, each member of it and all who fought to transform it into what it is today and always. An amazing band that is part of my  days, my history, my life,my dreams, my cure!!!

Thank you for the existence of  X Japan  and for offer so many beautiful songs.  Music that marked our lives in so many ways!

Thanks for your precious time reading my letter.

Hontoni Arigatou!

Kisu,

Luiza Boragina


We are X!  For ever!!!

e-mail: luliboragina@gmail.com

twitter: @luboragina

SMILE

Lyrics by John Turner and Geoffery Parsons - 1954 

Music by Charles Chaplin - Modern Times theme

Smile,
Though your heart is aching
Smile,
Even though it’s breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You’ll get by

If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear maybe ever so near
That’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile,
What’s the use of crying
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just

Smile,
Though your heart is aching
Smile,
Even though it’s breakin’
When there are clouds in the sky
You’ll get by

If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

That’s the time
You must keep on trying
Smile,
What’s the use of crying
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

FIREWORK - Katy Perry

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag

Drifting throught the wind

Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin

Like a house of cards

One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep

Six feet under scream

But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there's still a chance for you

Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light

And let it shine

Just own the night

Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework

Come on show 'em what your worth

Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"

As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework

Come on let your colors burst

Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"

You're gonna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space

You're original, cannot be replaced

If you only knew what the future holds

After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed

So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow

And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light

And let it shine

Just own the night

Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework

Come on show 'em what your worth

Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"

As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework

Come on slet your colors burst

Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"

You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom

Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

It's always been inside of you, you, you

And now it's time to let it through

Cause baby you're a firework

Come on show 'em what your worth

Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"

As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework

Come on slet your colors burst

Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"

You're gonna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"

Boom, boom, boom

Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

Boom, boom, boom

Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

para tradução: http://letras.terra.com.br/katy-perry/1731882/traducao.html

Vitorias,

Oba oba!

Demorei p vir escrever aqui, mas acho que foi mais a falta de saber como escrever.
Bem, como escrever eu sei, mas eu gosto de escrever de forma que as pessoas sintam o que eu desejo passar... ou melhor, gosto que as pessoas consigam imaginar como se eu estivesse falando diretamente com elas atravez das minhas cartas.
Pois bem.

Ja faz um tempinho que eu estou p vir aqui e falar dos meus passos rumo a vitoria.
Entao, as novidades?  Eu estou surpreendendo ate mesmo ao meu medico! hahaha!
Serio, eu fui la depois de refazer o PET e a Ultra Sonografia e os resultados foram otimos! Entao o que isso significa?  bem, ainda se pode ver os nodulos, mas eles ja deram uma diminuida e nao estao reagindo ao fluido do PET o que significa que eu estou reagindo perfeitamente bem a quimio!  Nao é o maximo????
Meu medico ficou bobo. hahaha.  É ele nao esperava por isso.
Mas é isso ai, eu disse q ele nao me conhecia. hehehe
Agora estou fazendo quimio ainda, serao mais tres ciclos, ja estou indo para o segundo agora dia 20.  E na proxima leva de exames, vou surpreender ainda mais.  (Que assim seja!)

E o que mais???

Sao tantas coisas, e eu ainda nao estou com aquela pilha toda de escrever.. entao complica...
HA!  Sei que talvez para muitos nao seja algo de grande importancia, mas para mim é.

Primeiro que tivemos o almoço de açao de graças. Eu nao podia ter dia melhor p agradecer a tudo o que tem me acontecido, nao é mesmo???? E fora isso tambem fui ao musical MAMMA MIA!  com a minha Imooto querida.  Ela me deu de niver.. e foi o melhor presente q ja ganhei!  Ate jantei com o Saulo Vasconcelos e a turma depois!  Foi MARA!

HAAA e tem mais tambem! hauhauah quase me esqueci!  Passei na Belas Artes e FAAP p arquitetura!  Vou fazer FAAP, mas serio, fiquei tao feliz em passar nas duas q eu queria! X333

Ou seja..

MANTENHAM SEMPRE UM FOCO E VA EM BUSCA DELE!

"Seus sonhos sao as asas que vao ajudar voce a voar"